Pwedeng Pass?

Whoever said "There's always a choice" probably had to choose the one decision he regrets for the rest of his life. 

It is true though... we always have choice. It's not necessarily a great one, but nonetheless, a choice. Besides, the only time a person would actually use this cliché of a quote is when confronted with a very impossible decision. I mean fuck you if you're that one person who has to say it to someone who's trying his best to decide whether to slash his wrist or drink bleach. 

It's way too easy when you're outside of the situation you know, when you're all like, "You can do it man!", "Here's what you should do.", "Don't worry everything's gonna be fine.". "All you can really do is pray." These are some things you really don't wanna hear during some tough decision making. 


At the end of the day, you're the only, the ONLY ONE, who's gonna have to suffer the consequences of that decision.

You're gonna have to endure whatever comes next. NOT THEM. If for some instance you followed their advice and it completely worked for you, they will take all the credit and immediately becomes the smartest asshole in the room. But when everything turns to shit, then they absolutely have nothing to do with it. Asshole either way. They will go on with their lives jerking off to some midget porn and live the rest of their life feeling contented with the idea that they "helped" you in some way. 

There's always a choice. 

One of the hardest decisions in life is whether to choose someone else's happiness over yours. 
If you're a selfless son of bitch then this is probably the least of your concerns. But if you're a decent human being, with a family, friends and love ones, This conundrum (fuck did I just use the word conundrum, *opens new tab to confirm meaning) is definitely the worst.

I remember listening to a radio program back then where they talked about how hard it is to become a hero. One of the hosts asked the other if she is willing to sacrifice her life pushing a kid off the road to save him from being hit by a car. She said she'll probably choose to sacrifice herself for the kid but the only thing that keeps her from being certain is that she's worried of how her family will feel. Like she doesn't care if she dies, but what's stopping her from being a hero is the idea of her parents crying over her death. 

The other DJ's made fun of her for her excuse, like it doesn't make sense, but that's exactly how I feel too. There are so many things that I have always wanted to do. Some things that are completely selfless, or incredibly selfish, that I've always wanted to achieve but can't. I can't because knowing that there would be people who will be greatly affected by my actions limits my desire to pursue these things. I hate the idea of them hurting due to my life choices.

Their happiness over mine. Life choices of a responsible, decent, adult.

Badtrip talaga yun e. Kung sino pa yung mga pinaka importanteng tao sa buhay mo, minsan sila pa yung mga taong humahadlang sa pagiging mabuting tao mo. Hindi naman nila kasalanan yun sa totoo lang. Malay ba nila diba? Choice mo kasi yun e, choice mong maging martir. 

I guess my question is until when do I have to endure this? How does one exactly know when to think about himself over others? When do you take the risk of hurting someone to finally feel alive.

Someone recently shared a story of whether to choose an old love over a new one. She is currently STILL committed with the former, but are in a long distance relationship. The latter however is a new flame. She met this person just recently but both felt a certain affection towards each other. Now, she is conflicted with the idea of leaving one for the other. 

Is she gonna stay with someone she's been with for years? Someone she's talked about sharing a life together. A relationship that has been tested by time and distance. A relationship that she is sure of. A relationship that she can settle with... for the rest of her life.

Or, Is she gonna choose the one person that she is falling in love with. Someone who makes her happy, a person she claims she sees herself with in the future. A reason to be excited about every day. Someone new.

And I remember quoting something from a 9gag meme, something about choosing the second one over the first because you wouldn't have to choose between the two in the first place, if you genuinely love the first one. 

I dunno, apparently she knew that quote so I really don't have any other advice for her. We just stared at our feet and fell silent. 

Determining pros and cons helps too. But this probably only works when you decide with your brain and not with the heart. 

There's just no rule, or formula when it comes to love. Shit we're going deeper! It's kinda true though... I really feel like logic ends when genuine love begins. You just become stupid all of a sudden.

You always have a choice. 
You can always kill yourself. That is still, technically an option. Whenever you're backed up against the wall, or stuck between a rock and a hard place, or any other shits like this, remember that you can always kill yourself. 

So whenever someone decides to tell you that you always have a choice, remember that they're telling the truth.


Parang nasasayo nalang talaga yan. Kung hanggang dito ka nalang ba o tutuloy mo pa. Ganon talaga e. Minsan wala ka nalang talaga magagawa kundi isipin na may isang taong mas mahirap pa ang desisyon kesa sayo. 

Kaya sa mga taong pinili maging masaya kahit nakasakit ng iba, tangina kayo, pero nakakainggit kayo.